Trusting Jehovah Jireh.
"The Israelites did as they were told; some gathered much, some little. And when they measured it by the omer, the one who gathered much did not have too much, and the one who gathered little did not have too little. Everyone had gathered just as much as they needed." - Exodus 16:17-18, NIV
I've been a juggler of jobs for as long as I can remember. When I was 23, I used to rush back from my lab assistant job back in Tawau to teach a tuition class. I was merely earning RM1000 at the time, therefore, I needed the extra cash.
When I got back to KK, I landed a job that was a lot cushier, but still, I decided to moonlight as a translator at a local newspaper agency. Being a single 24-year-old, I didn't need the extra money. Somehow, I just loved having some extras. Never mind that I was working close to 14 hours a day.
Today, I work two full time jobs and juggle a couple of freelances on the side. Living alone with my cat, I find myself having too much time on my hands sometimes. And I think, more than anything, I'd just grown to love being busy. Sometimes, when I finish work early, I'd lay in bed at night wondering if there's something else I could've done as to not waste the day.
Keep it in writing.
I've been a juggler of jobs for as long as I can remember. When I was 23, I used to rush back from my lab assistant job back in Tawau to teach a tuition class. I was merely earning RM1000 at the time, therefore, I needed the extra cash.
When I got back to KK, I landed a job that was a lot cushier, but still, I decided to moonlight as a translator at a local newspaper agency. Being a single 24-year-old, I didn't need the extra money. Somehow, I just loved having some extras. Never mind that I was working close to 14 hours a day.
Today, I work two full time jobs and juggle a couple of freelances on the side. Living alone with my cat, I find myself having too much time on my hands sometimes. And I think, more than anything, I'd just grown to love being busy. Sometimes, when I finish work early, I'd lay in bed at night wondering if there's something else I could've done as to not waste the day.
I suppose, growing up in a poor family has made me more appreciative of opportunities to make more money whenever I can. But lately, there has been far too many days when I went to bed feeling like a dried vegetable and woke up in the morning feeling like I hadn't actually slept at all. I thought to myself, there has to be a solution to this madness.
Since three years ago, I have made a point to keep a record of my monthly income jotted down in a notebook. I've learned long ago that it's good to keep a journal of God's miracles and interventions in my life, as a way to remind myself whenever I'm discouraged or whenever I tend to forget about His goodness. But as good as it is to note about the nice things that happen to you (e.g. someone buys you lunch, a stranger offers to share an umbrella, etc.), I think keeping a record of God quantifiable provision is so much more powerful.
It is especially powerful to serve as a reminder during the times when I work myself too hard because I fear of not having enough in the future. For instance, I was examining my record the other day and realized that although I've regularly switched jobs in the past three years, my income has pretty much been steady. Regardless of whether I've gone travelling, donated to charity, lost a client, suffer losses or anything at all to cause me to lose some savings, in the end, God has always managed to restore what I have.
In short, regardless of whether or not I hoard opportunities, what I have has always been enough -- neither too much, nor too little.
Having said that, I feel like God is leading me to let go of one of my jobs and just let Him be my Jehovah Jireh. Besides, all the jobs I have are just means to His provision. He is still the source -- and as long as I rely on the Source, I'll be just fine.
Since three years ago, I have made a point to keep a record of my monthly income jotted down in a notebook. I've learned long ago that it's good to keep a journal of God's miracles and interventions in my life, as a way to remind myself whenever I'm discouraged or whenever I tend to forget about His goodness. But as good as it is to note about the nice things that happen to you (e.g. someone buys you lunch, a stranger offers to share an umbrella, etc.), I think keeping a record of God quantifiable provision is so much more powerful.
It is especially powerful to serve as a reminder during the times when I work myself too hard because I fear of not having enough in the future. For instance, I was examining my record the other day and realized that although I've regularly switched jobs in the past three years, my income has pretty much been steady. Regardless of whether I've gone travelling, donated to charity, lost a client, suffer losses or anything at all to cause me to lose some savings, in the end, God has always managed to restore what I have.
In short, regardless of whether or not I hoard opportunities, what I have has always been enough -- neither too much, nor too little.
Having said that, I feel like God is leading me to let go of one of my jobs and just let Him be my Jehovah Jireh. Besides, all the jobs I have are just means to His provision. He is still the source -- and as long as I rely on the Source, I'll be just fine.
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